Today the internet people were supposed to come in and set up my WiFi. They came only to realize they forgot half of their equipment. Since I stayed home for this, I ended up working the rest of the day from home. I can't help but to feel unbelievably awkward as I roam around my half empty apartment.
It's really starting to soak in that I'm here to stay and as my friend Tamsin said "this is not a vacation but it's HOME".
I invested most of the day working on various things. After I exhausted myself of work, I found myself more work, my work plan. I have so much on my plate that I felt like I needed a robust work plan to clear my mind.
I want to make the most out of this fellowship. I had dreamed of this kind of change in my life. Now that I'm finally here I want to make all the sacrifices worthwhile. So many people around me have invested in me and sacrificed; my family, my friends, Acumen, my investee and more importantly, myself. I have given such a big part of myself for this next year. Yet, I find myself being so awkward about it all.
The self doubting, and frustrations are piling up.
"Can I really make the impact that I am here for?"
"Is 9 months enough time to learn, build and create everything?"
"I don't know anything about this region"
"Oh dear, what have I done, I have no idea what I'm doing!"
"Geez, do I miss Trader Joe's and good sushi!"
I just want to be past the adjustment hump.
For now I have to let the reality set in that this is not holiday but home sweet home!
It's really starting to soak in that I'm here to stay and as my friend Tamsin said "this is not a vacation but it's HOME".
I invested most of the day working on various things. After I exhausted myself of work, I found myself more work, my work plan. I have so much on my plate that I felt like I needed a robust work plan to clear my mind.
I want to make the most out of this fellowship. I had dreamed of this kind of change in my life. Now that I'm finally here I want to make all the sacrifices worthwhile. So many people around me have invested in me and sacrificed; my family, my friends, Acumen, my investee and more importantly, myself. I have given such a big part of myself for this next year. Yet, I find myself being so awkward about it all.
The self doubting, and frustrations are piling up.
"Can I really make the impact that I am here for?"
"Is 9 months enough time to learn, build and create everything?"
"I don't know anything about this region"
"Oh dear, what have I done, I have no idea what I'm doing!"
"Geez, do I miss Trader Joe's and good sushi!"
I just want to be past the adjustment hump.
For now I have to let the reality set in that this is not holiday but home sweet home!
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